in the wake of tragedy

On July 15, 2016, I lost a friend.

My friend Logan was killed in a car accident. When I found out, I couldn’t even breathe. I couldn’t even move. I just sat on the floor and cried. I cried out to God, “How could you let this happen?”

That night, I went to a meeting with my fellow school band members. There were lots of tears and hugs. We prayed and cried and grieved together. We remembered Logan’s life.

We remembered how Logan was such a happy person. He had a big smile that you couldn’t help but smile back at, even after he walked into the band room 20 minutes late for marching band rehearsal. One time, he had a triangle part in band and always came in at the wrong time, and we all laughed together.  Before our frontline sectionals for marching band, we sat on the floor and broke into laughter together playing two truths and a lie.

And I cry out to God, “Why did you let this happen? Why did my best friend have to lose her older brother? Why do I have to go to my friend’s funeral at the age of fourteen?” There are so many “whys.”

I don’t know why bad things happen, but what I do know is this: God is good in the good times and the bad times. It’s hard to believe right now as we grieve, but God’s plan is better than the plans we have for ourselves.

This tragedy has reminded me to tell the ones I love how much they mean to me. If I had one more day with Logan, I would have told him how much I loved his smile and his happy personality and his hilarious jokes.

But I’ll never know if it will be the last time I’ll see someone on Earth, so I need to tell them that I love them. And nobody knows how much time they have left on Earth, so we all need to make the most of our lives. We need to love others with our whole hearts. We need to live life to the fullest.

Me along with Logan and several other friends during VBS 2010

Me along with Logan and several other friends during VBS 2010.

Our community is grieving. We find comfort together, in hugs and whispered words of encouragement. For now, I will grieve. I will remember Logan’s life and spend time with the people I love. God doesn’t want us to suffer alone. He takes our burdens and walks with us through this hard time.



10 thoughts on “in the wake of tragedy

  1. Beautifully said Lydia. My deepest sympathy to you and your whole community. Because my husband passed away suddenly I think I should have great words to encourage others going through similar experiences. but I really don’t. So I say bless you for your words, they say what we all need to hear…love fully everyday, share God with others and trust Him so you have the assurance that you will meet again.

  2. Miss Lydia – my heart aches for you and your friends. Small Iowa towns give us the benefits of knowing everyone, and yet, some days that feels like a curse. So glad you have your faith and know that small town love is a blessing and will surround you and lift you. PS – I was (am) a drummer and I smiled a bit at your triangle reference. I won’t be able to see, or hear, a triangle without thinking of you and your friend. Hugs from a little ways south-east of you. 🙂

  3. Sweet Lydia,
    I’m so very sorry for the loss you, your best friend and your community are suffering. Logan sounds like he was a wonderful gift to you and your classmates. I even laughed out loud when reading about him being perpetually late to band practice and when his timing was off playing his triangle part.
    You are so wise my young friend to be able to discern that God is good, even when the circumstances are extremely difficult and impossible to understand. May the Lord bring you and your friends and family comfort as you grieve and take the time to honor Logan’s life.
    And…I don’t know you personally, but I know your mama and I love her, so I’m quite sure I would love you too!❤ Please pass a hug along to her for me, will you?

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